Moments before Cate Blanchett and Rooney Mara embrace in a fit of passionate sex in the film Carol, the countdown to 1952 can be overheard in the background. Both women, react to the New Year in perfect melancholy.
Blanchett's character, Carol, tells Mara, who plays Therese, that normally she brings in the New Year in solitude, to which Therese replies, "I usually spend it alone in crowds".
As I write this, we are at the start of 2016 - very much into this next cycle of months and days. Personally, I've never felt more anxious or on edge in all my life. I constantly find myself wondering what future generations will make of us, centuries from now. Will they class us as arrogant bigots or as a human race so technologically-savvy that, at the click of a button or slide of a screen, we were granted anything our hedonistic hearts desired?
Is all this unprecedented access to the world and freedom to our minds actually good for the soul? Or is it a poison?
Has humanity really advanced or are we so delusional that we don't realise just how stoic of a society we have become, driven merely by temporary fame and a measure of 'likes'?
Like Therese, I also feel alone in crowds; crowds of people who are not really interested in what I think, who I am or what I believe in. I'm lost in a crowd of high-fives, double-cheek-kissing (ass or face, you be the judge!) and friendships that last as long as it takes you to click 'unfollow'. Welcome to the New Year, as I and you now know it to be.
For this issue of the eMagazine - a recap of our top 2015 content - we've edited together our most intense imagery, filled with internal conflict and a contortion of thoughts and limbs. It is a perfect visual representation of the current state of the world.
One of the best features that I read last year came from our Editorial and Features Director, Grace Carter, in her interview with Pulitzer prize-winning journalist and fashion critic, Robin Givhan. Givhan's account on being a minority working in the fashion industry made me reflect on how difficult it is to relate to other people who have never bothered, or find it necessary, to acquaint themselves with someone different than them, whether they be black, brown, white, gay, straight, transgender, Jewish, Christian or Muslim.
I imagine these minorities must also at times feel alone in crowds. I challenge not only myself, but also every PETRIe reader this year, to fill any moments of loneliness with an understanding of something different, with a love for something new, and, most importantly, with a genuine intent to do good and leave the world that we exist in as a better place - because God only knows what centuries to come will be saying about us if we don't...
Words: Zadrian Smith